Oct. 6th, 2017

I’m amazed at how positive my mood has been today. Even when I had a rough customer, I quickly was able to turn back to my positive mood. I’ve been attempting to let things go easier for probably the past two months now and I think I’ve had a few days that I’ve truly remained in a good mood. Slow progress, but in ways still progress.

I’m thinking about starting a little research to see if I can find any tips/tricks about remaining positive for the overly negative person, like myself. Then maybe creating a bullet journal spread for the tried ideas I know work for me to keep as a reminder and to look back at on those truly moody days.

How do you remain positive on those days that truly test your patience?


Sept 10th, 2017

Today I’ve been slightly productive (I’ll never feel fully productive until I stop taking so many rest breaks) and it feels great. I planned out my day a little yesterday and while, of course, everything didn’t go as I planned, I accomplished most of my list. There is nothing better for a planner than having an almost completed or fully completed check list.

Not only did we complete some chores around the house, but we spent two hours out walking around and I loved most every moment. Alex and I used to walk everywhere, but since we both started driving we’ve become a bit more lazy, constantly staying indoors. A habit which I’m soon hoping to break, both for our sake and Aidan’s, he loves anything to do with being outside.

This is something that’ll benefit us all, I’m trying to remind myself, but on those days when work was hell and took it all out of me I just want to come home, maybe hide under the bed, and sleep until next century. But being outside more will put me in a better mood and I’ll spend more time just enjoying the moments I have with my little one. Aidan deserves a more present momma, Alex deserves a happier, more loving fiancé and I deserve to be happy with them.

Our whole life is about to change in between breathes, I have to remember to focus on bettering myself a little too. ♡


Implementing A Night Routine

Recently I’ve been working on implementing a night routine. More for myself than Aidan, I’ve been pretty consistent with him, but in becoming consistent with him I’ve lost all consistency with myself.
I’m trying to narrow down what works best for me at night. Of course, I’ve added the obvious brushing my hair, teeth, and bathing. Also adding in some household chores, prepping for the next day, and trying to relax. I’m starting to figure out what’s working best, but I always find some reason to give up, usually bullshit, but I let it stop me nevertheless. But not any more.
Here’s high hopes that I can begin with consistency in my night routine and work my way into consistency in other parts of my life. I’m one week in and it feels amazing. I’m not giving up yet!
Do you procrastinate as bad as I do? If so how do you battle it?

3 Extra Perks of Breastfeeding

These answers exclude all of the obvious perks to breastfeeding like health benefits.
1. Middle of the night convenience. I didn’t have to get up and warm the water to make the bottle or try to sleepily gather his bottles together without making a mess or doing it wrong. The simplicity of waking and pulling out my boob was probably my favorite perk of breastfeeding. I have always been one who loved extra sleep so not having to spend more time preparing his bottles in the middle of the night was amazing!
2. Less cleanup. As long as I was with Aidan and fed him straight from me, I had less bottles to clean. Who doesn’t love less dishes? Now that Aidan is older and is drinking whole milk I have so much more to clean in terms of bottles whether he’s drinking it or I’m packing it up for his time with Mimi or Grandma. I miss the days when I didn’t have 3-5 bottles to wash a day.
3. Less to pack when we go out. While other mothers had to pack bottles with premeasured water and premeasured formula for the duration they planned to go out. With breastfeeding I had to take a few diapers, maybe a change of clothes, a blanket and Aidan. It was easy to gather it all when we needed to quickly get out the door or were going somewhere carrying around a large diaper bag was not an option.
Like most, I was more attempting breastfeeding for the health benefits to Aidan and the bond it created between us, but I can’t deny each of these points made breastfeeding that much better for me.
Did you breastfeed or formula feed? What were the extra perks for you?

Mentally preparing for a fight.

That didn’t happen…

I’ve had several moments since I’ve had Aidan where I’ve attempted to let my feelings be known and I’ve sat and reworded the same sentence at least 20 times, but still end up hurting someone’s feelings and getting yelled at. So I’ve started letting some things simmer, hoping it doesn’t boil over. Attempting to think about it and whether or not it’s even worth mentioning, but you come to a point that you can’t hold it in any longer, or it’s important enough to share.

I came to that point this last week with the same person that always takes what I say or do a way I don’t intend. I did what I normally do and sat and reworded the same paragraph for probably 10 minutes until I thought it would have to do.

While impatiently awaiting a response I began mentally preparing myself for a fight later. Running through things that may be said and the response I’ll give. Thinking about it now I realize how crazy that sounds.

Why do I prepare myself for a fight that I don’t want to happen? Is there a part of me that enjoys the chaos, the drama? All I know is I don’t enjoy harboring bad feelings, especially doing it to myself for no reason.


My first happy mail package.

For my birthday my dad gave me $100 to spend and I decided to use it on my first scrapbook.com order! For days I was overly excited awaiting my package of carpe diem planner goodies.


With my recent love of all things planner related it should be no surprise that everything I bought had something to do with planner products. I’ve been looking into carpe diem products basically since I really started diving into the planner world, but had yet to have purchased any of the items I’d truly had interest for because of still being in the diy mood. But when I came across the following items, I fell in love and couldn’t help myself.

I can’t say I’ve figured out  exactly what I’m going to do with the paper pads just yet, but I have started using the say cheese collection for my current planner set up.

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I still keep it quite simplistic, with a dot grid page in the center to hold daily to-do’s, but it’s doing the job and while I’m still far from planner peace I’m getting closer and closer to figuring out exactly what could hold planner peace for me.

The paper is smooth and while my stamps do shadow sometimes they don’t bleed through.

I haven’t used all the products so I can’t really give a review, but I am so excited to explore some premade planner supplies because so far besides my planner and stamps, I’ve done mostly everything by myself.


Meal planning and starting a new budget.

I’ve been overspending on groceries for the past month or so and I’ve really enjoyed keeping a variety of items leaving us able to throw together a dinner on a whim, but I’m getting to the point that we’re looking like we hoard food.

For the next few weeks I want to do a pantry challenge to empty out what we have and save most of the money from our grocery budget to really start monthly meal planning and to change around our budget a little. So I haven’t had to truly go grocery shopping to prepare for the upcoming week, I just gathered meal options from what we already have here at home.

This week’s dinner meal plan:­

 ~Mini corn dogs with fries.
­ ~Pork chops with corn and green beans.
­ ~Tuna helper.
­ ~Loaded baked potato chicken casserole.
­ ~Taco Tuesday.
­ ~Chicken alfredo.
­ ~Breakfast for dinner.

In house we still have more ground beef, pork chops, ribs, chicken wings, chicken breast, kielbasa, chicken thighs and chuck roast we can use to make lunch’s or switch out meats for dinners. As for sides, we have mac and cheese, baked beans, peas, carrots, green beans, and corn. I’m left with the ability to switch out whole meals if I’m just not feeling it for the day.

But I do need to go pick up some fruits and veggies for Aidan this week, all I have left is cuties, a tomato, and carrots. While he does have a wide variety baby foods,  Aidan has been really enjoying feeding himself for the past few weeks and doesn’t have, I guess you could say the patience, for us to really feed him anymore. I’ve bought reusable food pouches initially for on the go and he sucks the whole 4 ounces out in under a minute. So I’ve been attempting to keep a variety of fresh fruit and vegetables in the house. Seems like a simple task and for most it is, but my fiancé often doesn’t know what we have at home or forgets and doesn’t look and I don’t like as wide of a variety of fruits/veggies as I should. We’ve wasted more fresh fruits and veggies than I’d even like to mention.

Let’s see if these next few weeks I can stick to my goals. Hopefully in the next month or so I’ll have a new system in place for grocery shopping and budgeting.