In Memory

I miss you so much. Sometimes I still forget that you’re gone and I get ready to call you to tell you about all that’s going on and then I remember. I just want to talk and catch up on everything you’ve been missing.

Aidan has gotten so big and growing such a major personality which can be cute, but also can be trying. I wish you would’ve had the chance to meet him, I know he would’ve loved you so. Although, I’m sure you would’ve just spoiled him rotten like most others in his life do.

There is so much I wish you could be a part of and I know you’re with me, but the fact that I can’t talk to you is becoming harder as the time passes.

I miss you, I love you, and I can’t wait to see you again!

-A.Brooke

(In memory of Gammaw and T.Rennae, I hope you’re resting peacefully. I wish you didn’t leave so soon.)

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Things to consider when going through a drive thru.

  • Employees are people too!
  • It’s rude to not look at people who are handing you something and speaking to you.
  • It’s also rude not to say hello back!
  • Employees aren’t mind readers. Every customer has different wants and needs, we can’t automatically know what you need.
  • Think about what you’re getting so angry over. Literally had a lady get ticked over ketchup today (or at least that’s the only thing I could’ve missed) and tried to speed off around the corner and almost did a 180 with her truck. I’m sorry I forgot, but no reason to endanger yourself and your kids. Also you just look like an asshole.
  • If the window is still fully or partially closed and you’re asking for something the employee is likely not able to hear what you’re saying even when they can hear/see that you’re saying something. Sound waves don’t travel well through walls and glass. Just saying.

I better stop here before I just get annoyed and cranky.

To those who are genuinely nice and friendly people, you are my favorite and I will likely give you almost anything, no questions asked. If it weren’t for you I’d have no hope for the world.

I take care of hundreds of customers a day and I can tell you now not even a quarter of them smile or are friendly. Not all rude, but definitely not friendly.

Oct. 7th, 2017

Where yesterday I maintained my positive mood so well, today was rough from the start. Waking to my, recently occurring, issue with my chihuahua having pooped in my room while we slept, which I cleaned and took her poop to the toilet only to find that my water is off. My inexperience with dealing with issues of the sort and stress from money and car issues we’ve been having as of late, it didn’t even occur to me to think maybe workers turned off the water because they were working near it or whatever. No I begin to freak the fuck out thinking there’s another problem, another thing going wrong.

I’m half screaming, half crying, gave Aidan his morning bottle and went down stairs trying to look at what I could see. Attempted to call Alex multiple times and as luck would have it my mom ended up calling not too long after because they were going to kings island and wanted to see if they could take Aidan. On the phone I actually started to lose my shit, I was so overwhelmed I couldn’t handle even explaining what was wrong without starting to cry or scream. She said they were already heading our way, Ryan would look when he got here. Irony struck and Alex called not minutes after my mom and I got off the phone and I explained the situation while again, losing my shit. He tells me to calm down or I’m going to start hyperventilating.

Seriously though, when will men learn to not tell women to calm down?

He asked if someone was working down the street and after looking for a minute I did find a door tag folded and shoved into the handle of my screen door… Instead of opening the screen door and hanging it where it goes or knocking, it was folded and shoved into the handle of my screen door… Why? Then I started screaming about them not knocking to get our attention or something. I mean, seriously, I have a baby in here. Thankfully we had enough water down for the dogs too or I probably would’ve been more pissed.

Alex came home for his break to look at the ac, because it actually was leaking. Figured that out and I ended up going with mom for the day. Really made me realize how out of shape I am when feeling how exhausted I was after spending all day at kings island.

Thankfully the water was back on when we got back, but after hearing a continuous stream of water while going to the bathroom we found out a pvc or pbc, or whatever it is, pipe connecting the main spicket outside to our other spickets on different spots of the deck was spraying out water. Sweet, not only did that bust, but we’ve had water spraying out for god knows how many hours they’ve had the water back on… GREAT for our water bill, GREAT end to the day.

How do you remain positive when it’s one thing after another, life just keeps kicking you while you’re down? I know it’s simple things, I know things will work out, but in the moment I’m just ready to give up.

-A.Brooke

Oct. 6th, 2017

I’m amazed at how positive my mood has been today. Even when I had a rough customer, I quickly was able to turn back to my positive mood. I’ve been attempting to let things go easier for probably the past two months now and I think I’ve had a few days that I’ve truly remained in a good mood. Slow progress, but in ways still progress.

I’m thinking about starting a little research to see if I can find any tips/tricks about remaining positive for the overly negative person, like myself. Then maybe creating a bullet journal spread for the tried ideas I know work for me to keep as a reminder and to look back at on those truly moody days.

How do you remain positive on those days that truly test your patience?

Implementing A Night Routine

Recently I’ve been working on implementing a night routine. More for myself than Aidan, I’ve been pretty consistent with him, but in becoming consistent with him I’ve lost all consistency with myself.
I’m trying to narrow down what works best for me at night. Of course, I’ve added the obvious brushing my hair, teeth, and bathing. Also adding in some household chores, prepping for the next day, and trying to relax. I’m starting to figure out what’s working best, but I always find some reason to give up, usually bullshit, but I let it stop me nevertheless. But not any more.
Here’s high hopes that I can begin with consistency in my night routine and work my way into consistency in other parts of my life. I’m one week in and it feels amazing. I’m not giving up yet!
Do you procrastinate as bad as I do? If so how do you battle it?
-A.Brooke

3 Extra Perks of Breastfeeding

These answers exclude all of the obvious perks to breastfeeding like health benefits.
1. Middle of the night convenience. I didn’t have to get up and warm the water to make the bottle or try to sleepily gather his bottles together without making a mess or doing it wrong. The simplicity of waking and pulling out my boob was probably my favorite perk of breastfeeding. I have always been one who loved extra sleep so not having to spend more time preparing his bottles in the middle of the night was amazing!
2. Less cleanup. As long as I was with Aidan and fed him straight from me, I had less bottles to clean. Who doesn’t love less dishes? Now that Aidan is older and is drinking whole milk I have so much more to clean in terms of bottles whether he’s drinking it or I’m packing it up for his time with Mimi or Grandma. I miss the days when I didn’t have 3-5 bottles to wash a day.
3. Less to pack when we go out. While other mothers had to pack bottles with premeasured water and premeasured formula for the duration they planned to go out. With breastfeeding I had to take a few diapers, maybe a change of clothes, a blanket and Aidan. It was easy to gather it all when we needed to quickly get out the door or were going somewhere carrying around a large diaper bag was not an option.
Like most, I was more attempting breastfeeding for the health benefits to Aidan and the bond it created between us, but I can’t deny each of these points made breastfeeding that much better for me.
Did you breastfeed or formula feed? What were the extra perks for you?
-A.Brooke